Over it & All about it

Last night I went out with LOL. We went to the batting cages and then grabbed a bite. I can 100% say that I am totally over LOL. I feel like I am a really easy person to talk to and that I can hold a conversation with pretty much anyone. But dang, while we were eating dinner the conversation just fell flat...several times. I realize she is a pretty boring person. What the hell was I thinking?! I feel like I was in a very vulnerable place when I met her and just needed something external to focus on. Or maybe the fact that she was kind of unattainable made me want it more. Who knows? 

But on the bright side I spoke with JC last night. Now, there is a good conversation! That lady cracks me up! We spoke for about an hour. I feel like I could talk to her forever. She is so awesome. Ahhhhh...just thought I would gloat for a minute. It's such an amazing and different experience for me. To be falling for someone who I find smart, interesting and beautiful. This is something completely new to me. It's not settling, like I have done so many times in the past - or just going for someone because they were easily attainable. I think I might actually be on track to fall in love here...for the first time ever! In my past relationships I always knew that I was never loving that person at full capacity. The "love" I had for them was more a love of taking care of someone and being in a secure situation. This type of love is completely foreign, but feels amazing! Wow. I can't wait until Saturday when I get to see her again. Seriously, my face hurts from smiling so much because she just makes me feel happy and gives me butterflies. Definitely found the zsa zsa zoo with this one!!